It's just that (at this moment) I am very aware that I cannot see the road that lays ahead of me. See the new photo at the top of this blog...I took it last August in the Upper Peninsula. Very foggy, very obscure...I could not see the road ahead.
There are a couple of wildly divergent paths that life could take...and I have zero clue which fork my life might take.
A couple of months ago, I could imagine the future. Now...I just can't.
I think that's a good thing...it leaves my future (and my trust) squarely in the hands of God.
Look again at the photo. Not very long after I took that, the sun came out. It was sunny...I found this
At the end of the day, the fog clears. Life will be good. God is good...and in control
It matters because if there is some little bit of good in us, then we can somehow try to earn our salvation.
Mormons say, "For we labor diligently to write, to persuade our children, and also our brethren, to believe in Christ, and to be reconciled to God; for we know that it is by grace that we saved, after all we can do." (II Nephi 25:22) - emphasis mine
Total depravity matters, because if we can earn our salvation, there is no need for a savior.
We are not just a little "sick", so that we can get better and so attain salvation.
No - we are DEAD in our sin. We can no more walk toward our own salvation than Lazarus was able to walk out of his tomb before Christ called him.
It is not until we understand the depth of our sin that we can fully understand our need for our Saviour.
It is not until we see how bad we are, that we see how good God is.